Living under open heaven

let the ruins come to life, at the beauty of your name, rising up from the ashes, God forever you reign. I was once ruined, like a wretch, but by your grace, your blood, your name, I am set free.  

you will heal me God. You come so that I may have life, and have it to the fullest. You hear my cry, you sing beside me, though I cant hear a song

His want His love to be accepted freely by all. Yet how can one accept when not given?  this love that He has so freely given is selfishly kept within me. I always said to my sheep, lg, and my shep, that His love fills me, but when I intentionally stop its overflow, I’m submerged in my bitterness, my over-protectiveness, that I forget the very essence of His love. Reminded once again why I do what I do, and while I have my fears and thoughts clouding my mind, it is You who is my confidence and therefore I will be faithful with what I have been given, knowing that in giving my best, my Father is proud of me and I can dare ask Him for more.

so much tears shed today.. and mere words can't describe how I felt today, so so so touched once again by God. He overwhelmed me with his love once again. Pastor Jennifer came to share her testimony, and I felt that the whole service is meant for me. That God would reserve a service, that's totally for me. He gave the exact words that I need through Pastor Jennifer. Tears kept streaming down my face, even the ushers next to me are tearing too.. Throughout the service, there were many times im holding my tears, feeling a little awkward with people around me, and I seems to feel God's gentle eyes looking at me, holding me in his arms and says " I understand". My tears cant hold back anymore... Every words that Pastor Jennifer said," I was at the bottomless pit, so much pain that I didn't even want to recall." "I almost want to end my life want I was 14" These were the exact feelings and experience I have. God saved my life. Literally, not ...

Jesus is not terribly impressed with religious commercialism. He is concerned not only whether we're doing God's work, but also how and why we're doing it. At the judgement seat of Christ, his main questions for me will have to do not with the growth of the ministry, but why I choose to serve in the church- in what spirit. If people left a meeting talking about what a wonderful sermon I gave or how beautifully the music sounds, the meeting had failed. But if people went home saying things like " Isnt God good?" It was a good meeting. we must never override prayer as the defining mark of God's dwelling. Jer 29:13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Prayer ought to enter into the spiritual habits, but it ceases to be prayer when it is carried on by habit only. Desire gives fervor to prayer. The soul cannot be listless when some great desire fixes and inflames it... Strong desires make strong prayers. Was so touched and I...

 God, listened to Belinda testimony and heard how her parents and sister came to know Christ. because of this life tangibly changed and by her showing them that Christ is love and is the way. this is truly inspiring and encouraging for me. and I especially like what she said about the broken hearted. she felt that god let her go through tough times of being rejected, depression and absolutely no self-esteem so that she knows exactly how it felt like to be in need and to relate and provide help for people who felt the same way. and one thing almost convicted my heart, she took a 6 months leave, obeying God despite the high cost of her job, to go for bible college. wow... I know the importance of your word lord, and I know obedience comes at a price. But Belinda shared your providence over her as well. and I want to have faith, that you will give me courage and you will bring me there. Cant help to think of Meiyen as well.. That whatever broken past she have gone through i...

As a Christian, no longer the duration, we need fresh wind, fresh fire. "for the sake of the world, burn like a fire in me." "Im not qualified," I protested. "Me, a LGL? or me, a worship leader in district level? I have no idea how to be one.." He said," When I call someone, that's all that really matters. Don't let yourself be afraid." After all, people weren't hungry for fancy sermons or organizational polish. They just wanted love. They wanted to know that God could pick them up and give them a second chance. God taking hopeless, even crazy people and changing them. Is not just a lip service or teaching to the idea that God can do anything. He really can! We need to have real faith that anyone who walked in, regardless of his or her problems, could become a trophy of God's grace I discovered an astonishing truth: God is attracted to weakness. He cant resist those who humbly and honestly admit how desperately they need...

I was downcast in my spirit, and at times even felt the doubt creep into my mind as to whether it was that sensible and right a choice that I had made in sharing my testimony on my 21st birthday, letting my parents know that I'm serious about God. I was secretly wishing that obedience to God wouldn’t require such increasingly escalated cost. I had felt and saw so undeniably His presence and guidance on the months leading up to my birthday, knew without a doubt that it was exactly where He wanted me to be, and yet with all the scolding and fruitless-ness seemed to be heading in the exact opposite direction I struggled with the whole notion of obedience, struggled to make sense of the promise He spoke to me that He is faithful and He loves me, and that His favour would be upon me. What favour is this if it all amounts to non-sense financially for my Cambodia trip and non-sense mistreatment from my family? I felt like Jeremiah, questioning God about what obe...

do you know that you are worth more than gold and diamonds? you are worth more than the most valuable things on earth. You are immeasurable, you are priceless. In the eyes of the almighty one, you are like a precious gem, unique, fearfully and wonderfully made. don't consider yourself as filthy, worthless, trash or down to nothing. because THOSE ARE ALL LIES!! You are made pure as snow by the blood of jesus. You are no longer condemned. And this is the truth. You are deeply loved and highly favoured. This is the truth. There is someone who loves you so much that it drove him to the cross for your sake. This is the truth. That u shall no longer live in darkness but in the light of jesus. This is the truth. And the truth shall set you free. My first prayer walk at geylang. Joined the women outreach this sem and was kinda overwhelmed. There's so much needs out there. The place is so dark.. not just dark literally but is so dark figuratively. A place that u cant seems to...

just a short post.. went for this camp straight after my last paper. To be honest my objective is more to connect to Eunice who is going to the camp as well. thinking that it will provide me with more opportunity to disciple and fellowship with her, to speak into her life. but then.. like super sian please, she last minute cannot come cause she's sick. And I couldn't really enjoy myself on the first day of camp cause I still have post-exam syndrome. not really in the mood to make new friends through icebreakers and first day the buddies are not there yet. almost wanted to back out from camp and go home rest, since Eunice is not here anyways... But then, since im there, guess god can make me learn something from there... so I persisted on. and I was attached to a beneficiary named Marcus who is an autistic 13 year old boy. Oh my god... trust me, I interacted with quite a few different beni with different condition. and he is the toughest. Guess God is testing my patient ...

this sem is very different, so so many breakthrough and growth through his word and people... These few songs I listen to and comfort me.. Hold my hand (in dialect service) " hold my hand, please don't leave me, sometimes I feel that I cant hear your voice" this is very applicable especially when it comes to my upcoming 21st birthday party, been fasting from fast food for it. Amazing love: been 2 years and once again, i'm touched by this song. It reminds me of Jesus and God's love through the cross... I'm so undeserving, but yet, when you were on the cross, I was in your mind.. (': and this gives me the courage to share your love to all my friends and family members. Lover of my heart " you're my friend, you're my father, I want to talk to you in the good and the bad, all I need is a moment of grace, it's in you that I have the faith to stand and be strong, I know im no longer bound, and I have the power to love and forgive' so...

"your love have seen me through all my days, I stand here by your grace... I want the world to know. God of my forever, and forever I'm with you." After my short term mission in June, I had the urged to do an evangelism party for my 21st. And as I was packing my stuff few days back after exam, I saw a prayer note I had before the sem starts. It says: " God I'm thinking of doing an evangelistic party for my 21st, but so much fear. Please grow and mature me for the next few months so that I have enough courage and fear to do that for your will. in jesus name, Amen" I still have a lot of fear, wanted to share a video about God to my friends and family on that day, but I just couldn't find a projector to do so. God please provide.. you know the desires in my heart, and I know the desire that's in yours, is for people to be saved. My birthday is the best opportunity, my friends and family will all be there, and is My Day, I can say and share anyth...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UruRQwI8pRE love this song; Sinking deep. :D Received another book from Jeanette! My take-away from it.. Nothing wrong with excelling, but if it begins to twist you, then it's a temptation. My life was to be more than cars or keeping up with others. Going for missions meant no spending money that would make us richer than the islanders If you get proud, God cant use you. confession to man brings humility and unity and makes a repetent person ready to receive God's healing of mind, emotion and body. Living the Christian life is difficult, there is only one thing harder--> that's not being a Christian. Guidance is first of all a relationship with the Guide. it is to lead us to a closer relationship with Jesus. There is nothing wrong with tools, but its sad if the tools ever supersede the lord himself. This is what hearing God is all about, getting to know him better. 1. Ask him to help you silence your thoughts and desires and th...

modules given by God. Mdis friend peiling gave me back to school welfare pack 2 prologue freshies came for immeasurable service! Prayed for my second sis to get a job, and her coming to church. How I can forgive my sister . She loves me back through 2014 birthday, she gave me a bookmark and a pen. He healed my eyes during CNY visit! I lost my nric and supernaturally found it from my colleague ! Liwei blessed me with dinner and pancakes! God bless me with tiny snacks at HQ or mdis whenever im hungry God gave me Jenny!

OMG so exciting! new sheep, so honour to serve you God, and take care of your kids. Thank you for giving me this privilege. So excited to see how you're going to grow Meiyen :) We met for our very first shepherding at Jalan Sultan~ Felt like a tourist with her. HAHA!

Catch up with Jiexin after not meeting her for months! Went to November 8 at upper Thomson and also salted caramel icecream shop! YUM!     Special service; immeasurable! Eunice came to hope church for her very first time! joined the Kaplan lg for dinner :D and met my dear sheep Liwei for shepherding before service! Super love the icecream flavour, peanut butter(I think) and chocolate!

Everything we have is given to us by God for a time, to use for his glory. laying down my rights is a key to winning major battles with the formidable forces of satan. The only way to conquer us to submit. Jesus has shown it. We have nothing that he hasn't given us. When we freely give to Him, it is bcas we want to show Him our love. God owns all the earth, the universe, but when we give Him what he has blessed us with, the expression of our love brings joy to his father heart. Give up something good and receive something of greater value; give up your rights/life and receive greater privileges with God. you do the possible, God will do the impossible. If he be God and died for me, No sacrifice too great can be For me, a mortal man, to make; I'll do it all for Jesus' sake. If you are living in the will of God, you are a missionary on the job wherever you work. There was a women sent from God whose name was Geraldine Ruth You don't need a call--> you...

to impact the nation of Singapore and nations around us is so far beyond ourselves, likened to 300 vs 135000 Midianites, without God it is impossible to succeed. Victory is from God and God alone. TIM: CHARACTERISTICS OF WARRIORS> God is testing our obedience when he wants us to do things that doesn't make sense to us. Are you willing to be embarrass or lose face for Him? If you are wrong, admit it. Gerry, don't be proud k? don't think you are very spiritual, you are not, just a lost soul saved and used by God. that's all. :) Don't be individualistic, proud or competitive. The world teaches us to be better/ to get attention. but god wants us to be united as one. without the rest of the body, you are nothing. Preparation takes place long before. It is a day in day out thing. We learn by mistakes, many of them. would you give up because of discouragement? God will raise you, just be disciplined and focused. Don't Give Up. Not everything will go your way, but...

been sowing on many people since I know God. My sisters, nat, ruifen, heinrich, lili, Sabrina, and the list goes on. know that through my words and action, and the help of God, they are drawn towards Christ someway or another. But Pengyan is the first fruit I saw so evidently wanting to cross the line of faith and her desire for God is so great! Wow. truly is God who can touch people's heart in such an extend. never wanna forget this testimony. First fruit for supernatural pioneering at MDIS! PRAISE THE LORD! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU JESUS! :D I'm so so grateful to you. Continue to use me as a vessel in my family Lord. 2 years later I wanna be thanking you for saving my sis and mum as well!