you are beautiful

was so depressed for the past 1 month, thinking that I don't deserve to be beautiful,
thinking that beauty has no value, because it only bring harm to self in this dangerous world.
However, i'm utterly wrong. Beauty is powerful, beauty can inspire, can touch, can be seen.
Beauty is God's creation.

I was in tears last night when God says I'm beautiful. And I don't mean beauty on the outside or physically. But I meant it as a soul. There's beauty in my soul. I can't stop crying..
Who am I that the almighty king said that of me? I know exactly what I had done, what have been done to me, so horrendous, my thoughts and my actions. I dislike to be beautiful and don't wish to be anymore.
But yet God says I am.

He makes me go to the mirror last night and tell myself that, and these were the very words I have said to the mirror, believing that it is what God would have said to me.

"You are a child of God, You are made in His image,
Your broken pieces are mended by Jesus, You are no longer broken.
You are beautiful. You are his creation. There is a part of God's heart that only you can fill.
You are significant and powerful. You are desired by God. You are the apple of His eyes, You are His daughter.
You are beautiful"

Dad, what kind words you've said and how loving you are. I'm utterly touched and by your presence and words, it feels that just by focusing on him, being overwhelmed by him, my problems, my depressive thoughts no longer matters anymore.

Thank you Jesus, you are truly my salvation, my joy, the truth and the life.
"and I will sing forever, Jesus I love you"
"So what could I say or do, but offer this heart completely to you"

God, I know even if it is a broken heart, you will not despise (psalm 51:17)

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

ride the rainbow

Image
"Thirty years ago, my colleagues, younger and more dreamy eyed, settled the words of our pledge. We did not focus our minds on our navels or we would have missed the rainbow in the sky. We pursued that rainbow and that was how we came to build today’s Singapore" "There is a glorious rainbow that beckons those with the spirit of adventure. And there are rich findings at the end of that rainbow." "To the young and the not too old, I say look at the horizon, find that rainbow, go ride it. Not all will be rich; quite a few will find a vein of gold but all who pursue that rainbow will have a joyous and exhilarating ride and some profit." Mr Lee Kuan Yew Looking at Lee Kuan Yew, how he gave up his life for the good of others, for the generation and future one to come to have a better life. How he sees the value of what he is doing.. Also reminded of Jesus Christ, how he gave up his life, sacrifice for us when he did no wrong, to that he may be sin ...
Read more

The heart of worship (Christian Artist)

Image
Humbled by this experience to dance on stage for the audience of One, ministering to others through dance. Thank You Lord, all glory to you.  That first step of obedience is the toughest. I know full well someone else could do a better job than me, and know that it is by the grace of God that I can be involved in His kingdom, serving Him and ministering to others.  When I was doubting my abilities, secretly hoping that the leader will change his mind and get someone else to do it, God never stop searching my heart and tells me who am I in Him, that it is indeed all about Him and not me. He bring me back to this very reason of why I started dancing for Him. "I'll bring you more than a dance,  for a dance in itself, is not what you've required. You searched much deeper within,  through the way things appear,  You're looking into my heart."  (heart of worship) The world looks at efficiency and capability, but God looks at the hear...
Read more

sabbath spent with le sheep :)

whoa! indeed those who refreshed others will be refreshed also. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTzIkg4V5Xw&index=55&list=WL Ever be: You Father the orphan Your kindness makes us whole You shoulder our weakness And Your strength becomes our own You're making me like you Clothing me in white Bringing beauty from ashes For You will have Your bride Free of all her guilt and rid of all her shame And known by her true name and it's why I sing   Thank you God for calling me daring, when im so unworthy of that title from such a glorious king such as you. :) Thank you for calling me your image-bearer, your beautiful one, when I totally feel that my soul and spirit are not pleasant at all.
Read more