seal

emmm... deep thoughts today again Lord..
never expected seal to affect me quite a big lord. perhaps is not seal in itself. but more of how others view or see me.

Merly, Liwei, Rebby, Edwink and Matthew were all expecting me to rise up.
I'm sorry to say that I will disappoint them.
I'm okay to serve as a core team, there are more to prune in my life, and I can commit more time in my tamar village ministry.
But what makes me downcast is not meeting the expectation people have of me I guess.

And that was when I realised I totally missed the point of Christianity and serving.

It is never about me and others, but about me and God.
God says I will rise up, but wait, it's not time yet. Let me prune you more, so that you will be a better leader and blessings to fellow brothers and sisters.
Have you been building on your word of God?
Have you been getting out of your struggles, your negative thoughts?
Is there anyway you desire to serve in your family which might be hindered by your leadership position?
Is there any areas you need to be more faithful in, in reaching out to LG members and taking full care of your sheeps, but is hindered by your leadership position?
Are you fully devoted to me?

Focus on my word, my ministry and my people, faithful with these little things, and the rest shall be added to you.

It is an honour to serve as a leader. But I cant help to think that our church has been placing to much emphasise on how "prestigious" being a leader is.
To lead is to be a servant first.
Be contented and grow in the lord Gerry. :)
Remember your promise and conviction before you meet God face to face?
To fall in love with Him everyday, a women in love is beautiful.
And to eventually bring your family to Christ. No matter how hard it is, persevere.
God has never gave up on you remember? On your most rebellious and down casted moments, He is always there, his love never fails. Your tears are in his records. (psalm)

God, my parents salvation is the greatest reward I could ever receive Lord.
I trust in your timing. You make all things beautiful in your time.

Love,
Your child

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