Living under open heaven

  First Bread with love at TPY! Man does not live on bread alone.. but with Sherlynn.. :p What a joy to be able to serve and be His hands and feet in anyways I could, however small it may seems..  Met a 80 year old uncle while distributing bread.. and His story really breaks my heart. It has been a week since I met him but I still feel so burden till now. It feels as though God has placed his emotions in mine.  He works as a social worker, but in the midst of giving, he became skeptical that God is good. As he go on to share about his resentment towards God's silence in natural evil; such as earthquakes and death, and how God can go on sitting comfortably at His throne and watching his people suffer, my heart can't help but to break, for I know all that he is sharing about others is just a facade of what he himself have experienced that compelled him to doubt His goodness or existence.  How can you hate something that you don't believe exist?...

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I will live to love you,  I will live to bring you praise, I will live a child in awe of you.. As I became more aware of my sins, flaws and imperfections in the presence of God, I am undone. I confessed my fear, is that He will turn His face away from me. I desire so much to hear from Him that He is proud of me as His daughter that it gets me when I kept falling. I know in His words that I am righteous because of Jesus's blood shed at the cross. I am now not a sinner but a saint in the making (romans 6, 1 cor6). It awes me to know that nothing I can do or not do can separate me with the love of Christ (romans 8:38). As I looked down in disappointment, finding it hard to even love me, his presence and words gently embraced me. He led me to Matthew 3:17 , as He is saying this to Jesus His son, He also meant that for me. " I am proud of you. You are my daughter, whom I love; with you I am well pleased. Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you (Deu 31:6) Ahhhh.....

"Who are you?" sounds like a simple question requiring a simple answer, but it really isn't.  Most would say their name, for instance, "I'm Davy Geraldine." But no, that's just your name. "I'm a youth worker."  No, that's what you do. "I'm a Singaporean."  No, that's where you're born. I could also say I'm tall and lean. However, my physical appearance and dimensions aren't me either. if you chopped off my arms and legs would i still be me? Yes. If you transplanted my heart, kidneys or liver would i still be me? of course! Who I am, though, is far more than what you see on the outside. The apostle Paul said" we recognize no man according to the flesh "(2 cor 5:16)  and the question for myself is; Is who you are determined by what you do, or is what you do determined by who you are? We tend to accept the false belief that good appearance plus the admiration it brings equa...

Parables of talent, taking risk to face fear will lead to growth. Control. Is there anything harder to release from our grasping hands? I've waged war with the issue of control in my own life and yet I still have to tell my heart to "let it go" and allow God to be fully in charge, especially when wrong is done to me. But to risk disappointment is better than to have no hope at all, because to risk disappointment is to let faith arise and take over. And as I claim all Your promises, somehow I know in my spirit that You won't disappoint. Don't just have hope, an inward desire, but also faith, an outward demonstration. Faith is made complete by what we did God would never, ever actually ask someone to do this, stops it all, and says, “You passed the test.  You’ve shown your faith.  I’m providing a sacrifice.  There’s a ram over in the thicket bushes.  Go sacrifice that ram.  You’ve been obedient.  I can bless you.”And here’s how James describes the ...

"Don't you desire a relationship?" One's immense desire to get a life partner isn't out of the norm, but this question  raised by a brother caught me off guard. I looked away, reciting in my mind Matthew 6:33, with his question kept me thinking what exactly my desire should be. Don't get me wrong, having such desires aren't wrong.. I learnt that delights in Christ brings desire for Christ. He gives the heart its desires- that is, he works in us (Philip 2:13) . This is why he can say in john 15:7 you shall ask what you will, if you abide. the branch takes its sap from the vine, the same surges the vine feels hen become the surges of the branch. My will becomes his, and i can ask what i will, if i delight myself in him, only then can my desire be attained, when it is his desire.   God knows the desire of our heart, and he wants to be our desire. All i have asked has not been given, and the fathers withholding has served only to intensify my desires. he...

Fresh thoughts come, and I have failed to record them, so now they are gone.  Last month was a time of transition, while feeling rather sad to say goodbye to the Uni ministry that grew me to who I am today, I am entering and taking up new challenges in the transition grads group. In merely 2 weeks I have taken and seen so much of God, or perhaps this is just a glimpse of it.  It's been a while to be so filled in the spirit through fellowship. True fellowship is like 2 mild lit candles that were initially far apart. As they share life, the closeness between them unintentionally caused their flame to touch one another, feeling encouraged and refreshed. Fellowship isn't suppose to be structured and rigid, where people are far apart and we have to intentionally lit the candles up with a lighter. The stirring emotions within me when I speak with like-minded people, it is more than just iron sharpening iron, but is that moment when Jonathan met David, someone who is run...

It's not just what we offer to God, but the order in which we offer it. Chris Beall First things first. 

If your eyes are on the storm You'll wonder if I love you still But if your eyes are on the cross You'll know I always have and I always will And when you're tired of fighting Chained by your control There's freedom in surrender Lay it down and let it go So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away Your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place I'm on the throne, and you're not alone, stop holding on and just be held I'm painting beauty with the ashes Your life is in My hands Come to Me, find your rest In the arms of the God who won't let go

"Now to him who is able  to do immeasurably more than all we ask  or imagine, according to his power  that is at work within us" If you only do what you can do, you will never be more than you are now. You dont even know who you are.

The world saw that Jesus was only eating with tax collectors and sinners, but Jesus saw people in need of the Great Physician. The world saw only a blind beggar named Bartimaeus shouting above the crowd and disturbing those around him, but Jesus saw a man reaching out in faith and in need of mercy. The world saw only a crooked tax collector named Zaccheaus becoming rich through the suffering of others, but Jesus saw a man ready to be broken with an act of repentance. The world saw only the crowds pressing in on Him from all sides, but Jesus sensed the touch of His garment by a trembling woman. The world saw only the 5 loaves and 2 fishes to feed so many, but Jesus saw a great multitude hungry and in need of compassion. The world saw only a woman caught in the very act of adultery and deserving of condemnation, but Jesus saw a daughter in need of forgiveness. The world saw only a robber crucified as a common thief, but Jesus saw a lost soul worth dying for. As of today......

When the music fades, all is stripped away, and I simply come. Longing just to bring, something that's of worth, that will bless Your heart You search much deeper within, through the way things appear. You're looking into my heart I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and it's all about You. It's all about You, Jesus I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it, when it's all about You. It's all about You, Jesus Finding myself singing the chorus again and again.. A simple song that had touched me ever since my youth days, and always reminds me and teaches me different things at different seasons. Is whatever I'm doing or serving in blessing your heart? Or is it just me justifying my self-righteousness? When is the last time when You were the one that inspired my serving? Or am I going around serving and doing Your will My way instead of Yours? Am i just a "good" Christian in church ticking off my checklist on w...

Some are fine, while some left me a little aching and sad inside. Some are full of praises, while some hurt and sting. It's okay, You said. The next one, I can choose to look at You. Surrendering them into Your hands. Each one of them. Never about the perfect response, but always me and You. Leaning into Your presence. Breathing out my fears and breathing in You. If I look up, will I see You? You are close to the broken hearted. Renewing and restoring, for this is who You are. Fighting battles. Winning and losing. Perhaps, this time round, I can afford to lose. For some battles are not meant to be won. Just so for more of Your plan to be revealed. Or perhaps, this is a losing battle from the start. Just so for me to see that true Victory only comes from You. In the midst of battles and moments, Heart, be strong and Lord, be here. Choosing You again right now at this moment. Should my heart falter again, I know it is okay too. F...