Am I starting to have wrinkles on my heart?


The treasure that I choose, is a treasure that last.
Nothing I desire, could ever come close, to what I have in you.

 Forgive my desire, forgive every motive, forgive my intention, cause i'd rather have you.
If it's not your will God, I don't even want it. Now I surrender, cause I'd rather have you..
I just want you Jesus. 

 Lord, I pray for my life to provoke others into godly jealousy, or to sell out more completely to Jesus, and to what Keith Green had said it. Be it just a song, the way I love and serve, my heart, what's inside and outside.



Oh Lord, you're beautiful
Your face is all I seek. 
And when you're face in on this child, 
Your grace abounds to me


I wanna take your love and spread it all around
first help me just to submit Lord
and when i'm feeling down, 
help me to rely on you
for my reward is to know you more. 


 Search me God, and know my heart, Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24)

 Lord am i starting to have wrinkles too?
 not on my face, but on my heart.. I need a new heart Lord.. Please light this fire.. Let my faith arise, not just a feeling or experience, but faith based on your word.

 Love is not self-seeking, it is not proud. It is active, and not passive. I shouldn't withdraw after seeing and knowing. If I can bring myself to love the broken and hurting people, why not the sinners that inflicted hurt too? Do they not deserve the cross? Those that I struggle to love, jesus he loves them, and died for them as well. I know myself full well, that I can't love them based on my own strength and rationality. but i know You can, and You can help me in this, because I am your co-worker, I am a co-heir with Christ. Whatever Christ can do, I can now do. Whatever Christ is, I am.

I am a saint in the making, a sinner no more.


Serving God isn't easy. It's going to be tough. The road is narrow and thin. But walking through figs, thorns and branches in the narrow path will develop perseverance, endurance, strength, CHARACTER.
"Character cannot be taught in a classroom, it can only be taught in the furnace of serving God..."

 perseverance is key. Faith isn't just our demands to God or blatant and outrageous commands to Him. But it is by grace that God has given us this privilege to communicate and pray and ask him for requests. And many a times, God wants us to pray to him with that level of understanding coupled with the prayer requests that we have. We don't command God what he has to do. We just pray and persevere like how Jacob did.

 "Bind my heart not to the praises or approval of men, but to delight only in keeping on the narrow path to Your gates of splendour. Set my heart aflame for You.”

 I thought of Pastor Jeff speaking about the times he drove the church truck in his home clothes and saw his friends in suits and ties crossing the road in front of him, how they spotted him and how he was left dumbfounded when they asked him what he was doing in a shabby truck on a weekday afternoon. I thought of Jeremiah’s complaint and how he had lost all his friends in obeying You. I thought all these thoughts, and am at peace with the cost of obedience; and it seems alright at the end of the day. Father, I am content to be criticised and misunderstood.
It was the moulding by such incidents that God steadily brought me to a point where the opinions of others no longer mattered, so long as my life was one that’s pleasing to Him. I found the quiet joy of delighting in the Lord, praying that not in me may men see the clay but the Potter’s hand. I looked forward to the day I would be able to say with Paul, “I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; ... It is the Lord who judges me” (1 Corinthians 4:3–4).

 The immense joy and privilege to be able to know Jesus in this life far exceeds all other happiness or earthly desires and aspirations that I foolishly cling on to.


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