costs

costs of being a Christian.
I wouldn't know this would costs me.
Until now the consequences starts to show up. I do not want to hide it anymore.
I wish i could get approval, this shows that I'm really serious about this relationship with God and how Jesus has changed my life 180 degrees.
My plan is to wait until 21, but my sister has been demanding me to say, she said it's time and don't want me to hide from mum any longer.
But there's so much things I want to do with God before i experience persecution.
I want to let more people know the love of God and how he could change their life like how he did it to me.
I haven outreach to Joscelin, Hendry, Jie Xin, Heinrich ad so much more...
I told myself that i must try my best to bring pam back, & Christmas will be the deadline for me to bring her back. I hope this will spur me and compels me to work faster.
But if i'm facing persecution myself i cant even help myself. Really need God's help so much now.
The thought of persecution scares me...
i will tell my mum on 25 dec 2012 the truth, may his Grace be on me.
that day when i already gotten my first semester results, hoping to convince my mum that even with church commitments, i'm still able to do well.
But the thought that 25 dec maybe the last service i can attend really scares me.
I  might not even have the ability to serve God wholeheartedly anymore. Lord, help me get through the toughest period of a christian life.

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